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It’s 3:30 AM and I have a (final) crit at 8:30 tomorrow. I should have gone to bed 3 hours ago. Meh.

I’m kicking myself mentally because I just majorly screwed up this KoL run (which I was trying to make a speed run so I could go farm crimbo). I spent around 60 turns at the pirate’s cove thinking I needed the dictionary, and getting frustrated that it wouldn’t drop. Then I realized that I had the Mt. McLargeHuge quest and *not* the chasm quest, and I was very sad for wasting 60 hco turns. Then, I got tons of RNG screwage. I spent around 40 turns trying to get the outfit for the mines. I got 4 pants and 3 helmets (as item drops) before finally getting the weapon. The ore I needed was the last one I came across. Then spent around 80 turns at the goatlet with +60% item drops. Encountered something like 12 dairy goats. Got exactly 2 cheese drops. Then I got the leaflet and got the bowling trophy instead of the stat code that I could have used to slightly lessen my screwups in this run.
So much for having time to farm crimbo after hc :-\ If I’m not done with this run by next weekend, I am dropping hc and oxy and farming the hell out of crimbotown anyway.
Bah.

Made tenative rules and cards for a Cluster card game today (instead of doing graphics homework).


I’ll finish it after this week is over. It seems fun enough (and a lot simpler than my other card games).
Bah, I’m screwing up my grades so much by doing this. I’m not going to get graphics done and grargh why am I so stupid?

Also, I can’t help but feel like I majorly screwed up with respect to my relationship. I don’t even know why, because it’s not like I did anything, much less anything *wrong*. I’m just feeling incredibly lonely and such… and I feel like I’m being too whiny and whingy about it and everything. I need to stop being so full of myself.
I guess it’s also the feeling that I’m not doing enough… that I need to be a better boyfriend.
Bah.

I screwed up peoples’ LJ friends pages yesterday after upgrading WordPress (because it apparently extended the feed back 15 days instead of 7, causing old entries to all be republished to the syndicated account).
Bah.

Also, I still haven’t found time to buy Christmas presents for anyone. This is a very bad thing. I’m a horrible friend.
Bah.

So let’s see… in the past 48 hours I feel like I’ve screwed up classwork, KoL, relationship foo, LJ foo, friendship foo, and my sleep schedule.

God I feel like I’m screwing up everything in my life.
I should be asleep right now.

Edit: Great… I woke up this morning, looked at the clock, and was like “SHIT IT’S 8:35!” Meh. Managed to make it to class by 8:45, so I wasn’t too late…
Yay for more screwups.

Memories

I’ve spent the past ~6 hours going through stuff on my hard drive. There’s things on there from my very first webpage (back in 4th grade) to my first VB programs (4th grade) to my first Java programs (6th grade) to various LPSO board stuff to every photo I’ve ever taken to a bunch of Games Factory games I made with Jim in middle school.

As I read through the various archived forum pages and chat logs, it occurs to me how horribly arrogant and self-righteous I was then. I acted like an ass to so much of the LPSO community, and for that I apologize. In chats, I was intrusive and annoying (hopefully I’m not as bad now… hopefully). Bleh. I hate who I was back then. Stupid stupid stupid.

I look over my old websites and I realize how horribly devoid of content they were. Sure, they featured interesting layouts and advertised themselves as “Fanfics, forums, and much much more,” but there really wasn’t “much more” than that. I think that’s one thing I’m proud of in AlanvDotOrg… it actually has content. Design is important, sure, but it comes second to content. Back in my early web design years, I seem to have forgotten that and used and reused the same old tired layouts as many times as I could just to have many pages up, even if those pages had only a “Coming soon” sign on them.

I was so full of myself… things were created under the assumption that everyone was interested in me… that my site was the one that everyone wanted to come to. I had password protected pages. I had exclusive members-only content. I put together tons of web games and quizzes. I had a page to give out awards to other websites. Meh.

I also stumbed across my first website ever. It’s an animorphs fansite with stuff copied directly from the official site and random animated web graphics. I was a little confused until I remembered it was before I knew to use “index.html” as the splash… so the index is “t1.html”. Odd, but meh. I should upload it sometime in case people are interested… it’s 1.2MB, but only because it contains WAV files.

So yeah, it’s highly amusing to go back and look through my old webpages. I just realized I have screens of them here. Heh. They evolved so much.

Looking over old photos, I’ve really changed.
Here’s me from Halloween 2000 with my Sonic pumpkin

Here’s me from before we even had a digital camera, at my birthday party (probably 5th grade) with Kat, Katie, and Jim

Oh, and me with my 6th grade homeroom class

My photography has also changed a lot… I guess you could say it’s matured. Interesting.
In any case, my folder containing almost every photo I’ve ever taken is now 47.2GB (94,872 photos) and growing weekly.

That’s a hell of a lot of photos.
I wonder if I can break 100,000 before December.

Looked over my massive archive of game screenshots from back when I loved posting screens of video games online. There’s over 1.5 GB of horrible-quality 640X480px screenshots from SoAL, Sonic Adventure 2, Animal Crossing, PSO, Grandia 2, Evolution 1/2, Starfox Adventures, SSBM, and Super Mario Sunshine. So much random crap in there. I really should get back into video games… I kinda miss them sometimes. I should also get my video capture card working again. Meh.

Looked over my archive of card games, from the failed games to my first “successful” one, the Starcraft TCG (although the definition of “successful” is debatable). So much potential. I still want to create RPG Get! I think they’re the best set of card game rules I’ve ever created, and the system is expandable such that it can encompass potentially-limitless numbers of RPGs in the game as seperate affiliations. Meh. One of these days I’ll get around to taking more screenshots of the games so I can have enough stuff to create the base set (which I think was supposed to be themed around Grandia 2 and Skies of Arcadia). Whee.

Ahhh so much more I want to write about, but it’s almost 2 AM, so I should probably sleep.

Edit: Meh, it’s 2:30. I’ve uploaded some (more) old pictures onto Facebook. Go and look. Whee.

Lotsa stuff!

Yeah so, today was eventful.
Landing in Denver was the first time I’ve been on a flight that had to abort its landing. Apparently, the air traffic controllers screwed up and the runway WASN’T clear. We were about to touch down when the engines revved and we pulled up hard. Whee. Took another 10 minutes to circle around again for landing.

Then, walking to New House from Donner, ran into Keith and Tim. Went to dinner with them and bohanlon. Before that, however, they helped me carry my boxes of stuff from Alisa’s to New House. And, of course, it started to rain just when we were setting back. And, of course, one of the bottoms of the boxes opened up halfway. So yeah. It took like an hour to get the boxes back, and it sucked, and meh.

Wheee.

Okay, so it seemed like more in my head.

Edit: *gets back to room*
*looks at the clock*
Holy SHIT it’s 5 AM?!?!?

Erm….
I mean, oh look, I sure woke up early today, it’s only 5 AM! Maybe I should go back to sleep!

*cough*

Edit edit: Student Wars: Hijinks and Booooth have been uploaded. Please play.
I have printed versions of all 5 decks in the decklists page. Come poke me sometime and I’ll show you how to play.
And New House showers are teh suck. They’re either too cold or too strong. Bleh.

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My desk area r teh photo-y! :-D
Actually, I’ve been meaning to replace most of the photos on the wall. They’re mostly from freshman and sophomore years of high school. My wall above my BED, on the other hand, is happy. I guess that’ll be tomorrow’s picture.

Um… yeah. So I head back to Pittsburgh in 2 days (this Saturday). Strangely, I’m not as excited about heading back as I was at the beginning of summer… probably because I actually am starting to feel comfortable here, and because I havn’t spent as much time with friends here as I would have liked. Meh.
Poo to all of you too, for not having time for me :-P

Only half kidding.

Worked a bit on constructing Student Wars decks today. Got a Programming deck, Athletic deck, and KGB deck done. I’ll build more so people have more options when it comes to introductory decks (since building a Student Wars deck, like any other TCG, is not trivial). So yeah, I’m putting all this work in, so people please play? I’ll sit down with you and teach you everything. Seriously.

For those of you who’ve asked, I’ll be working at the PSLC this summer (which basically means I’ll be on campus at the LTI). They produce and market tutoring software for kids. I’m working on the algebra tutor project. I’m going to be rewriting the backend of said system: the parser that takes the word problems the instructor enters and outputs the solution algebraic equations. The existing parser is written in lisp and is relatively accurate. Our goal is to improve the accuracy (so instructors don’t have to go in and fix the parser’s mistakes, which is extremely time consuming) and to rewrite it in Java. In doing so, we hope to gain an understanding of how children learn to parse word problems and get solutions. Should be lots of fun.

I just hope they didn’t misplace their faith in me… as in I hope I’m smart enough to do this. Meh.
Sounds like an incredibly difficult problem.

Gone to GameWorks for the past 2 days and played DDR. It’s really weird that they don’t have an ITG machine there, given how they’re supposedly incredibly state-of-the-art. At least I’m getting exercise.

What else, what else… there’s so much I want out of life, and I feel like such a bum sitting here in front of my computer all day not getting any of it. What have I contributed to the world? Nothing. Makes me feel insignificant. Meh.
Whatever. I don’t want to be big and important anyway. Famous people are scary. I just want to be content with who I am and what I have.
And I think, at this moment, I can be, so yay.
Life is good.

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Yeah, so I was going to make a nice, long, thoughtful post. And then I realized I didn’t really have anything to say.

Meh.

Instead I will leave you with this preview of Student Wars: Booooth

Liek omgz pr0n!

Actually, it’s a very cute picture.