Feeling: Content
Listening to: What Can I Say (Carrie Underwood)
I’ve uploaded photos from Sharon, Charles, and Matt’s wet bar party to photos2. (I keep typoing wet bart barty. Stupid BART. :P)
I’ve also gotten life updated up to present day. I kind of fail at continuing the daily photo project, but oh well.
Here’s some photos from Carnival from after I posted the batches to photos2:
I haven’t updated this for a couple weeks, so I guess I should do so. Gogo gadget short blog post.
There was a Carnival. It was awesome. Tons of photos are posted to photos2, so you should go look.
Sharon made a random comment yesterday that I didn’t take seriously at first. However, having had last night and today to think over it, it’s seeming less and less crazy and more and more like it could should happen.
Details forthcoming, maybe.
Yay life.
Feeling: Indeterminate
I had a day. It was an interesting day.
Spent the morning walking to Point Lobos and back, in the hopes that it would help me feel better. The walk there was really nice and relatively sunny, and I got there and sat on the cliff overlooking the ocean and was happy.
Of course, as soon as I turned around to come home, it started raining. I didn’t have an umbrella. By the time I got home, I was pretty soaked and cold and miserable. Bleh.
The entire trip was a little over 4.5 hours. It’s something I feel like I should do again… it was a really easy walk along a busy street (Geary) with easy bus access should I need it, and there are hiking trails at the end that I want to explore. I kind of wonder if I should do this every weekend as a way of getting exercise.
Took a nap and felt quite a bit better afterward. Dinner was pan-fried herb tilapia with rice and veggies.
There is currently a spiced pear oat cake in the oven. Hopefully that will turn out tasty. I made spiced pear oat cake. It is tasty.
I also managed to finish the second iteration of the Drama game. The tokens and cards are all cut, the photos are printed, and it’s just waiting on people to try it. Hopefully that’ll be this coming Wednesday.
Yesterday afternoon was also a bit of fail. I went to Costco and bought a 750GB ultraportable hard drive that was on sale at $100 from $130. Brought it home, looked it up on Amazon, saw the 3-star review, and walked back to return it. They apparently refund cash, so then I had to walk to an ATM to deposit the money back in my account. Whee. On the plus side, I also bought a brie, on sale at $4.
Spent the evening sitting in Yerba Buena gardens and watching the water and felt a little better. Also soaked in the hot tub for a bit and felt more better. Went to bed early only to have a nightmare and be woken up at 2 AM. Was able to sleep again at 3 only to have another nightmare. My mind hates me this week.
Also? Parents are awesome. <3 you guys. :)
Feeling: Depressed
I haven’t made an angsty post in a while, so I suppose I’m allowed this one.
Yesterday was my three-year anniversary. This is awesome and happy and yay.
Still, each one brings with it the reminder that we’re still apart… and with another 18-24 months of long distance left, it’s just another reminder of how much more time we have to spend apart.
Even then, I don’t know how things are going to work out WRT jobs. I worry that I’ll be so entrenched at Salesforce at that point that I’ll be really unwilling to leave. I suppose there’s always remote offices, but still. I don’t think I want to settle in the bay area, but that doesn’t mean I want to be thinking about leaving it either.
Other than that, I’ve felt like work hasn’t gone well this past week. I haven’t gotten as much done as I would have liked to, and we have a ton of stuff to get done in the next two weeks (of which I will be missing a week for Carnival).
I’ve also generally been failing at things lately. I made tokens for the new game I’m working on that were supposed to be glued/taped onto a Thai 50 satang coin. However, my estimation skills seriously fail and I made the tokens about 50% too big (they need to be 2/3 their current size) so now I have a bunch of tokens printed on flimsy paper. Maybe I’ll glue them to trading cards and cut them out instead.
Progress on other games has also stalled… the next RPG Get! expansion requires more screenshots, and I haven’t felt like hooking up the Gamecube and taking them, and People Wars hasn’t really gone anywhere.
I also worry that I’m intrinsically a bad person. I guess I’ve been feeling particularly sensitive lately to how I can come across kind of aggressively when I take so many photos of people. It’s not like I’m necessarily taking fewer photos as a result (although I didn’t take any while playing games on Wednesday, which was unusual), just that I’m feeling bad about it afterward when I download and look through them. One of my bosses asked for photos from work for a video for the all-hands meeting. I went through work photos from the past 6 months and couldn’t really find any that I was happy with to give him. In general, I feel like my photography is completely lacking in quality and I’m not really sure what to do about this. At some level, taking photos makes me happy, but this past week it’s been doing much the opposite. Also incoherence. Foo.
Also I feel like I’m too dependent on people. I worry that I bother people too much when I should be finding things to do on my own. I guess I just need to find things to do that interest me that don’t involve sitting in front of a computer screen.
I also feel like I don’t have a good balance between spending and saving. Currently, I save around 50% of my take-home pay. This is all well and good, but when I start not-buying things like a mattress (don’t have a bed and I’ve lived here for over 2 years now) or a new computer (haven’t bought one in over 4 years) or not ordering food when I unexpectedly go to a restaurant with friends, I worry that I should be erring more on the side of buying things. At some level, the only purpose of money is as a means to happiness. It’s certainly important to have some saved up for unexpected events (theft, medical issues, earthquake, job loss, etc), but I almost feel like I’m too obsessed with saving. Still, I guess it’s good to save as much as I can now while I’m still young and supporting only myself and not needing much, because settling down and raising a family means having far less disposable income. I don’t know. I don’t know what a good percentage for saving is. I don’t know if the $50 I budget myself every month for personal purchases (which doesn’t include large purchases like my D90 and recently stopped including scheduled social events like karaoke) is too little or too much (hasn’t been raised since Freshman year of college when I was effectively making no income).
Blah.