Why am I so unmotivated?
I can’t seem to get any work done. Need to start my graphics lab. Need to work on algo homework. Not really doing either.
Blarrrr.
One more week… hopefully I can find the motivation to not screw up the last stretch.
Tomorrow is December. It needs to snow.
Stupid global warming.
I keep having really weird, really freaky dreams. The moment I wake up, I forget almost all of it, but I’m left with this sense of intense fear and anxiety and lay there for a few moments too scared to move. Not quite sure what that means.
My final projects for both photo classes are coming along. For alternate, I plan to print various photos of Ev, with Van Dyke, onto a roll of paper towels. It turned out rather well when I printed Ben to test (although I didn’t fix it for fear of absorbing all the fixer and wasting it), so we’ll see how it goes. For color, I’m doing a more documentary-style portraiture shoot of CS life… which is to say, I’m shooting like I always do, except with my film camera instead of my digital. Dylan seems to be pleased with the results thus far… kinda ironic that I’m putting less effort into this (just shooting as I always do instead of racking my brain trying to think of things to shoot or trying to organize shoots) but it’s working out better. I want to assemble a book for the final, but I’m not sure if I’ll have enough images to do so, and if I do, I’m not sure I’ll have enough time to do so.
We’ve recieved the final assignments in all classes, so it’s all downhill from here. I’m a little worried about the graphics lab and final algo homework, but I’m sure I’ll eventually get it done. These next two weeks are going to be intense… followed by an intense week of finals (4 finals in 3 days… ew), and then it’s off to home.
Normally I’m kinda relieved to be heading home, even though I prefer it here in Pittsburgh. This year, however, that “Eh, whatever, I’ll go home” is turning into an intense feeling of longing. I don’t want to leave, despite really wanting to see my parents.
Relatedly, things in relationship land are amazing and I still feel like the luckiest guy alive.
Most of you already know I’m planning on graduating in December 2007. However, I’m contemplating becoming part time for my Fall 2007 semester. After next semester, assuming I pass all my classes, I will have exactly one requirement left to graduate, and it’ll be a CS elective. I’m planning on taking Computational Photography and Operating Systems… but there’s not really much else I want to take. That comes out to 24 units, which is less than the 36 required to be full-time. It’d be cheaper to pay for the units, especially given that I wasn’t planning on living in campus housing anyway. It’d absolve me (read: my parents) from various CMU fees too…
I dunno. Mark says it’s a good idea if I don’t really have anything else I want to take. I’m not on any scholarships that require me to be fulltime. I suppose I should discuss this with my parents.
I’m horribly behind on internship searching. I have no offers and no prospects, and it’s almost December. Blah. I guess that’s what Christmas break is for.
No pictar because I’ve been shooting all film and don’t have any of it scanned yet.
I managed to freak myself out this morning.
I had a dream wherein I woke up, except I knew I wasn’t actually awake because I went to the bathroom to pee, and did so, and still felt like I had to pee.
So then I was late to class because I had to go pee and freaking out because I wasn’t awake. I ran around the school which suddenly became a house and used the restroom, except I still had to pee.
Then I ran into the school’s restroom to pee and the custodian got mad at me and made me leave.
So I woke up in my apartment, and went to the bathroom to pee. But I still felt like I had to pee afterward. So I woke up and went to the bathroom to pee. Except I wasn’t actually awake because I still felt like I had to pee. Mrrrr.
So then I actually woke up, and actually used the restroom, and felt relieved because I was afraid for a little while that I would never wake up.
I dunno, it was one of the scariest moments ever… and it wasn’t even a scary dream.
Blar.
I had too much to drink last night before bed -_- (but not alcohol… just diet coke and water)
Um.. in other news, I managed to get absolutely nothing done this entire break. No homework done, no projects (like Student Wars) done… I did nothing but eat and sleep and play ITG. I mean, I guess I needed the break, but meh.
Also, happy birthday to Keith.
Today we had a KFC run of yummyness. I think it’s the first time in a while that all 8 of us (me, Keith, Tim, Al-Tim, Apphia, Mars, Dan, Ian) have been together in a while. It was pretty nice. You’d think it’d happen more often given that we all live within ~60 feet of each other (vertically or horizontally), but meh.
Mmm I am full of yummy food.
Had dinner tonight with Tyler, Psyfe, Alan, and Tyler’s friend (whose name I forget because I am bad with names). So much good food…
So I was kinda stupid. I planned to make candied yams. I found a recipe online, and it called for 6 large yams… it didn’t occur to me to think how many people said recipe would feed… so I bought 5.75 pounds of yams from Geagle (they were 6 *very* large yams). Set out this morning to make the yams… and found that I filled the pot after 2 and a half, so I made the candied yams and still had 3.5 yams left.
Looked up a recipe for mashed yams with marshmallows, and made that as well, using up another 2.5 yams.
So yeah, I had a huge casserole dish full of candied yams, another filled with mashed yams, and another whole yam. Sooo many yams.
I looked it up afterward, and it turns out 2.5 pounds of yams can feed 10 people. I made about 5 pounds of yams for 5 people. Oops.
Besides the massive amounts of yams, Tyler had made baked cornish hens, a huge casserole dish of stuffing, salad with apples and pine nuts, bread, and garlic redskin mashed potatoes. His friend brought cranberry sauce. Psyfe brought pies.
I am full and happy now. So much food :D
Yay for not having to spend Thanksgiving alone (and thank you, Tyler!)
Also certain people make me very happy and make me feel loved and are just generally awesome.
*feels incredibly lucky*
I have at least one thing to be thankful for this year… and it’s definetly a big one.
Haven’t done any homework in the past 2 days. Maybe I should do some tonight.
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Nah.
Blar, I’m going to have nightmares about yams tonight. Candied yams, mashed yams, baked yams, yams with honey, sliced yams, cubed yams, crushed yams, whole yams, raw yams by the pound, mounds and mounds of yams ahhhhh!
*runs away and hides*