Yeah so, first I just want to send out a HUGE apology for my entry and behavior yesterday. The lack of sleep, more than anything, was what caused me to be completely angsty and bipolar and such. Thank you to everyone who was there to listen and give advice. Thank you also to my parents, who care about me so much, and whom I really should talk to more often.

I’ve been in a really creative mood. Yesterday and today, I took some of my favorite pictures ever. They’re not anything special (composition-wise and such), but I just find them completely perfect. Wheee.

Um yeah. So I’m actually feeling good today. I had this huge introspective entry written and ready to post, describing how I felt so much more at peace with things and with myself… how I actually feel like I understand myself better now… why I do the things I do (namely, why I’m so negative going into things, because I really didn’t used to be), and such. And then I realized that, by writing it, I’ve accomplished what I had to. For that reason, I won’t post that entry.

I will say, however, that things just make sense now… everything just feels like it fits. I am comfortable with where I stand right now with respect to relationships and foo. I finally understand what people have always been telling me… how the best time for a relationship is when you least expect it, because then it’s meaningful and you’re not desperate. Before the important thing was always, “I like you, is there potential there?” But this time… that’s almost even trivial? What’s more important now is the existing friendship and just… that things work out, no matter what happens. I don’t even really know.
And I think that, for the moment at least, I can be content being single. That’s a good feeling… one I havn’t felt in a long time.
It’s nice.

So I spent all day today at Tim’s apartment playing games with Keith. It was lots of fun. The bus ride back was kinda interesting… the bus Keith and I planned to take only went to Wilkinsburg… so we got off on the busway and had an adventure figuring out what we had to take or do to get back to Oakland. Wheee.

A building on the way home from Tim’s apartment.