Still kinda disappointed about Fog Creek. Meh, whatever. I just feel kinda stupid… like my best wasn’t good enough for them, so it’s never going to be good enough for anyone. Blah. Oh well.
I still don’t regret anything though… I really did do my best. I can think of things that, in retrospect, I should have coded differently… but I know I gave it my all at the time.
It’s just meh… everyone else has job/internship offers. I have none. I don’t know what I’m going to do this summer if I don’t get one.
Got a 96% on both my ECE and Combinatorics exams (stupid mistakes). They make me happy, at least. The yummy lemon pepper fish with stuffing and asparagus I had for dinner helped too. And the cinnamon swirl cake didn’t hurt either.
I have so much homework I need to do. Gaah. 312 and 213 both look very painful… ironically, one is all about completely breaking the type system (writing malloc), and the other is about improving the type system (writing an implicit typechecker and such). Brain… hurts… ahhhh. Also have a project to shoot for photo. Prints for it are due Wednesday. I am going to die. Oh yeah, and there’s a 213 midterm next Tuesday. Whee. This sucks.
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I miss New York.
I just want to lay down and relax for a bit… but seeing as I did that all weekend, I really should do work now.
Meh. I don’t know why I’m feeling so bipolar right now. Part of me is happy that I did my best and that I’m doing fine in classes and that my life in general is amazing. Part of me just wants to curl up and cry from homework and not getting a job and foo. Meh… maybe I’ll go do the latter for a while, then get back to work. If I can get unstupid and get around to understanding the 312 typechecker, that is.
Meh.
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My new journal has only gotten 8 comments.
2 of those have been me.
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Dude, stop it. You are depressing me.
Seriously, I think pretty much nobody is actually qualified for the internships they target at sophomores.
You should get an internship in DC and live with me (and Oliver) over the summer! Only I don’t have a job yet or know when I’m going to be moving.
Heh — when I was a sophomore I got a job making $8.50 an hour formatting source code for e-books. If things aren’t too different at CMU, you probably have a while yet to get the high-profile CS jobs. I didn’t notice my skill set really maturing until after I was a junior.
I don’t comment here because I don’t get automatic notifications of replies, so I can’t have a conversation with you here unless I compulsively check back for the comments, and I don’t have time for that.
I don’t have an internship yet either…