{"id":3666,"date":"2022-10-09T10:36:02","date_gmt":"2022-10-09T14:36:02","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/journal2.alanv.org\/?p=3666"},"modified":"2022-10-09T10:36:02","modified_gmt":"2022-10-09T14:36:02","slug":"im-used-to-feelin-that-fire","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/journal2.alanv.org\/?p=3666","title":{"rendered":"I&#8217;m Used to Feelin&#8217; That Fire"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>I keep feeling like I&#8217;m overdue for a post here, but every time I open up the page to write something new, I find myself drawing a blank. Where is there to say that I haven&#8217;t said ad nauseum already over the past few months? The world&#8217;s on fire and the civic situation feels more and more hopeless with each passing day. I&#8217;m behind on everything I should be doing and accomplishing less than I should in every aspect, particularly work. Blah blah blah <em>insert the same complaints from the past year of journal posts here<\/em>.<\/p>\n<p>The one thing I <em>have<\/em> been keeping up with is my photo journal and photos stats, both over at <a href=\"https:\/\/life.alanv.org\/\">life<\/a>. They updated on time at the beginning of last month, and I was thinking this was the first time I failed to make a timely journal post announcing the update, but I&#8217;d also apparently failed at that with the end-of-April update this year, so c&#8217;est la vie. Or whatever. That&#8217;s probably not even the correct use of that expression.<\/p>\n<p>I missed my cousin&#8217;s wedding because the world&#8217;s over COVID and so plane travel is even more unsafe than it was at any point during the actual pandemic. It would have been nice to be there, and been a nice trip, and generally just been nice. I feel bad about missing it, and should be angry at the world of anti-maskers and anti-vaxxers and science deniers in general for denying me the wedding, and denying me indoor dining, and denying me travel in general&#8230; but I just can&#8217;t rustle up the energy anymore. So instead, I&#8217;m just sad.<\/p>\n<p>I guess the last sentence of my last post ended up being remarkably prescient.<\/p>\n<p>So things just&#8230; are. Which is better than some alternatives, but worse than others.<\/p>\n<p>Meh.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I keep feeling like I&#8217;m overdue for a post here, but every time I open up the page to write something new, I find myself drawing a blank. Where is there to say that I haven&#8217;t said ad nauseum already &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/journal2.alanv.org\/?p=3666\">Continue reading <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[34],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-3666","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-pandemic"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/journal2.alanv.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3666","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/journal2.alanv.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/journal2.alanv.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/journal2.alanv.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/journal2.alanv.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=3666"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/journal2.alanv.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3666\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/journal2.alanv.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=3666"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/journal2.alanv.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=3666"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/journal2.alanv.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=3666"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}