![](\"http:\/\/journal2.alanv.org\/images\/clustarcirc.jpg\")
<\/p>\n<\/p>\n
First off, Ben, I wish I knew what to say. You’ve had by far the shittiest week imaginable, and I really hope things look up. If you ever need to talk to someone, you should IM me or call me (whatever time it is).
\n:-\\
\nIf you’re in the mood sometime, we should hit up ITG (my treat) and play Paranoia Survivor :-P Mwahaha.<\/p>\n
Relationships are the strangest things ever. How can something that feels like it should be so much work be so incredibly relaxing and make everything seem less overwhelming?
\nHuman emotion is such a paradox. I’ll never fail to be surprised by my own emotions and how they make me act.
\nI also never fail to be amazed at how comfortable I feel… I never thought I could be so open or vulnerable with someone, especially given that I’ve gotten myself hurt before trying.
\nI guess I’m just lucky. :)<\/p>\n
Um… so, updates about life.
\nGraphics makes me want to die or kill something… and never write or look at another line of code ever. It’s not even necessarily the material. We’re writing a ray tracer for this assignment. That’s one of the most awesome things ever. Yet… the teacher and the TAs and the material manage to make me dread the class more than anything ever. I don’t even know what it is specifically I hate, I just know I hate it.
\nI talked to Mark, and he suggested that I either convert it to pass\/fail (and so the work I’ve done so far isn’t wasted) or just tough it out, because he has no doubt that I can do it… it’s just that I’m not happy doing it. We’ll see how this lab goes… and then decide whether to convert it (I’m basically guaranteed to pass the class at this point) or just continue (and likely end up with a B, which isn’t bad at all).<\/p>\n
This<\/a> is basically the schedule I want next semester. It’s still up in the air whether or not I’ll be able to get graph theory (since it’s Mackey graph theory and everyone wants to take it), but it seems like an awesome schedule… 60 units of pure happiness (except maybe Networks, but that’s required, so meh). The other courses shouldn’t be a problem to register, but meh. I really should find an alternative for graph theory.<\/p>\n Photo is going decently. I kinda want to do another random “get people in the studio and see what happens” shoot, since the last one was incredibly enjoyable. I feel like Dylan wasn’t too thrilled with the results (the crit didn’t go too well), but meh. I enjoyed it, and when it comes down to it, I’m doing photography because it’s fun, not because I want to impress people with it. Other classes are going great. Algo is amazing. This homework assignment basically involves using network flow to model different problems. It’s so amazing to see all these different problem types being represented with network flow graphs… and it’s all really intuitive too, once you see it. Whee!<\/p>\n Alternate photo is completely perfect. We’re making gum bichromate prints, and I really like the way mine are coming out. I really should post pictures of my pictures sometime.<\/p>\n Analysis is awesome. Today we basically spent 30 minutes proving that the integral of x^3 from 0 to 1 is defined, and it’s 1\/4. We basically showed that integration works. We’ve come so far from the first week when we proved that numbers exist and are defined.<\/p>\n Besides that, and besides me being stressed because of graphics, life is going very well. I’ll probably be whiny again once I tackle my graphics program and want to die, but right now, I’m happy with things. First off, Ben, I wish I knew what to say. You’ve had by far the shittiest week imaginable, and I really hope things look up. If you ever need to talk to someone, you should IM me or call me … Continue reading
\nSo I guess… open call…
\nIs anyone interested in being photographed (again)? May or may not involve random clothes removal (obviously optional).<\/p>\n
\nWheeeee.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"